Are you someone who can’t engage in superficial conversation? There’s so many people that tell me, they have such a hard time engaging in superficial conversations. It’s unbearable, even excruciating for some. As I sat in a restaurant, having lunch with my spouse, I overheard the chatter of the ladies at the next table, all dressed in their Sunday best, having friendly conversation. It made me wonder, what is it about superficial conversations that really bother me? I hear a
Sometimes healing implies that we are weak, wounded, maybe vulnerable. Characteristics that we might not desire. And to heal, could imply that we need to have a “doctor” to tell us how to heal. Or a healer, someone to heal us. Healing is becoming aware of a deeper truth from within, a place that brings pain and pleasure to a balance. That brings opposing force into alignment of truth. A healer invokes , activates and facilitates healing through a deep resonance of healing ene
Not of beauty,
Not of ugly,
Representing all of her surroundings,
She grows in the wild,
Moving in ways that move her.
Yet her expression is wild, untamed, natural.
As the wind blows, she responds,
As the rain falls she is nourished,
As the sun shines, she soaks it up,
As life feeds on her, she heals.
The beauty is within,
Her story embedded deep within her petals, that will fall to earth one day, nourishing and harmonizing as one. #Empowerment #feminineenergy #introvert #l
Heartless living has been my teacher. I’ve the years I’ve been on the hamster wheel. Following a path that helps me to survive. The unaligned path of my soul and society. I do all the right things, and try to say the right things, but am I really living a life in a way that I was meant to live? Taking care of all the responsibilities of a wife, mom, daughter, friend, neighbor, employee, and citizen. How does that align to my heart and soul? In living this way for the first ha
There are those who cannot hear the one voice. They only follow the herd. Who does that herd hear? It’s starts off with that one voice. Be silent. What is your one voice saying to you now? #introvert #wisdom #selfworth #mindset #feminineenergy #Empowerment
The dark holds me like a womb, nurturing, safe, and comforted. Quiet. I can hear my heartbeat, my breath, my thoughts, the whispers from within. I am the moonlight Sending gracious soft light I am but a mere image of who sees me I wax and wane with the moon I embrace the dark and await its message of truth. I can see in the dark my own light Truth be in the dark. #introvert #Peace #beauty #heroinejourney #progress #feminineenergy #selflove #Empowerment #connection #Truth
I used to think that healing was about making things feel better, overcoming a block, or getting a better or different perspective to see it from a broader view of life. I have grown and through my experience, have come to know another healing. A healing that comes from feeling. Healing that is not about trying to take away the pain. A healing that instead, creates a deeper connection with myself. One that I feel in my body, a feeling of acceptance, rather than fear and shame
As I sit here in the airport, I’m enjoying the beautiful Salt Lake City snow capped mountains. I’ve never been to Salt Lake City before, even just for a stop over flight. As I take in the beauty of the scenery, looking for connection, deeper than meets the eye. I look down, and notice my feet, it has roots! You know I’m in my meditations, I root from feet into mama earth, and there I see it. The critic creeps in, and says, it was designed to be roots, it’s just a design. Th
Oneness. Surpass space and time. Duality of earthly and energetic life is oneness. Separation comes from perspective of the mind. Cause and effect is not only of earthly life, it also goes beyond space and time. Cause and effect is oneness of all space, and oneness of all time. Cause and effect lives in a single moment. The moment that is both effect from the past actions and the cause for future from current actions. How is cause and effect transcendental? Cause and effect
As I lay here feeling sick, tired, and unwell , I again read my post on confidence. Confidence in just being. It’s very wordy. It didn’t get to the heart of what I felt. Confidence is an inner strength that feels good all the way to the skin. Knowing oneself, accepting myself as is. Being able to walk through life, not knowing, and still going. Having courage to try anything that my heart wants. Confidence is, seeing oneself in the light of truth. #introvert #intuition #sel
As I move along this life, more and more things demand my attention and pulls my thoughts in many directions and require so much of me. I feel lost, frustrated, pulled in so many ways. As I notice this, I also notice, my heart is tethered to something more than this existence. My heart is connected to the deeper purpose of my life and life itself. #introvert #wisdom #Peace #selfworth #feminineenergy #selflove #Empowerment #connection
I have abandoned my home, I am not safe. I’m wandering alone, Looking for some place. Searching high and low, Armored with love in a shell, I cannot find a home to call my own. I fear this homeless place, Will I be alone and cold, Nowhere do I belong , ashamed I hide my face. As I scrub the pots,my daily chore, I recognize a thought that aches in my heart, and makes it drop to the floor. I lost my way home. I have abandoned my own soul, all of these years. Couldn’t find safet
Struggling one morning to get zipped up, fighting against time and the stiffness of a frozen shoulder that has also traveled through my neck and lower back, I started to sweat, clench, and become overwhelmed with frustration. I stopped , rested, and tried again. And again, and again, and again. My frustration grew into anger. My jaws clenched even harder . Thinking about how long this was taking me, the pain felt like a sentence of weak, vulnerable, dependency. I took a dee
This morning a feeling of loneliness washes over me. My first instinct is to think of something that makes me feel connected, but instead today I’m deciding to dive in. The air feels dense, it’s quiet. I sense nothing. No one in the house, no sign of life but my own. Am I connecting to myself becomes my first question. Well, apparently so, since I’m noticing this feeling in the first place. Where have I felt this before? Memories of feeling so alone when people were mean
Chrysalis Phase My body has been going through mid life changes. My arms are mushy and hang, my face has more lines, more softening that causes it to hang. My shoulders have taken it’s toll , and froze up on me. As I contemplate this phase of my life, butterflies would pass by, as I drove, in the phone, walking in my yard, eating lunch… everywhere! Ok, so I thought to myself, I’m going through a change and I’ll come out a graceful butterfly. I’m still waiting… When I woke up
Photo by Pixabay on Pexels.com In this moment of my life, I finally feel a confidence that is grounding and nourishing to my soul. A feeling of my being and my body, integrated and aligned. Before, whenever I felt confident in myself, I did notice this hint of ….hummm…what I feel now as arrogance. I think that’s what I thought confidence was, a sort of arrogance. In those moments, when I felt that type of confidence, I also felt a dark feeling of loneliness, and as if I we
Photo by Pixabay on Pexels.com ~Ear of the Wind ~ When most people listen, they listen with the ears of their own filters. Most listen to respond, to blurt out what is in their head, in their own heart. Wanting to be heard. To influence. To be right. Listening with the ear of the wind, it has no judgement, it has no opinion, or response. The ear of the wind, allows all to blow through. To hear what wants to be heard, to hear the words beneath the words, to feel the heart of
Photo by Maria Orlova on Pexels.com As I end this year, and I reflect on the accomplishments, I’m feeling like a failure. I put in so much effort, time, and money into programs to build a business that is heart centered, that is honest, that is transformational and empowering, so that we can evolve as humans, as co-creators of our society. As I dive into this feeling of failure, I feel as though I’m small again, this child that just couldn’t succeed. So, now I ask myself, wh
We all have used our past experiences to make decisions for our future.
I find myself having a tough time making decisions, and trying to figure out what I really want to do, and wondering if it’s all going to work, is it a wise investment of my time, energy and money? There’s this tugging and pulling from my logic and from my desire.
What normally happens is that I’m in this indecisive stuck feeling, until something painful happens, and suddenly my body kicks in and says ,
It’s Tuesday night after 8:00pm, I’m drained, my eyes are burning from working all day, my lips are parched, my head buzzing, I’m tired and my teeth clenched. The wind is whipping outside, and all I can think of is sleep. But I’m so determined to write a blog once a week because I believe this practice of sharing our experiences is life changing for my, want to be hidden self, and for those who can relate. Am I alone? At this time, when the Covid-19 virus is on the lips and